1 Nephi 1-2

So while reading these chapters, I was really awed by how much faith Lehi had. Can you imagine what it would be like to have these vivid dreams given by the Lord? Dreams of their home and city being destroyed, dreams of direction, dreams of seeing the Savior and speaking with him? How amazing would that be for one? To actually get to speak to the Savior, even through a dream would be the most amazing thing to experience. The amount of faith it must have taken for Lehi to leave his home, and go out to the wilderness, to the middle of nowhere I can't even imagine having. How hard would it be to follow someone who couldn't "PROVE" that these things were true? I know obviously that it takes faith to follow what the Prophet and apostles tell us today, but they aren't asking us to leave our homes, our friends, our lives to go to a new unknown place. I could only wish to have the amount of faith that Lehi had.

Laman and Lemuel make me SO angry. In chapter 2, verse 9, Lehi encourages Laman to be like the river, or in verse 10 he asks Lemuel to be like the valley. I CAN imagine Lehi's frustration in seeing his sons go in another direction. It's funny how when Lehi talks to them, they tremble and quake. What does that mean? Does it mean that they feel something? like the Spirit? What does confound mean exactly? Did they just do what he commanded them, just for a short time, because they were scared of Lehi, or because they were scared of the Lord? I feel the exact same way as you do Ash, when you want to shake your siblings, or whoever it may be. Sometimes I don't get why they are the way they are. Hannah told me the other day that she wanted a new niece or nephew and so I should get married. I told her it wasn't that easy and she said "sure it is, you're momo. just lower your standards and you'll actually be happy". Really? Lower my standards? I know what I want. I know I need a man to take me to the temple. I know I need the Priesthood in my family. I know she isn't happy with her choices, yet she tells me to do the same thing? It doesn't make any sense does it? It is hard to see people fall when they have the truth right in front of them, and it's SO SO easy to live. I don't get it, but you are right. Pray is really all we can do, and we just have to have faith that our prayers will someday be answered, even though it might not be in our wanted time frames.