1 Nephi 7-8

I love Lehi's dream so much. Though it also scares me... Sometimes I wonder how close I am to the rod, and how close I am to the mists or the great and spacious building. Sometimes I feel like I'm not doing good enough. Do you feel that way? I'm sure we all do. You have always been an amazing example of staying close to the iron rod and striving to do what is right. You know, I think that if it wasn't for you, I might not be where I am today emotionally and spiritually. You were always encouraging me to read scriptures with you and go to the temple with you and say prayers together. AND I am so glad you were able to look past your first impression of me, because I know how bad it was. I know that the Lord put you in my life for many reasons, and I know you will be a part of my life for a long time still...

WOW. That was cheesy.

I loved this scripture when Nephi is reprimanding his brothers for their behavior. It's verse 12 in chapter 7: "Yeah, and how is it that ye have forgotten that the Lord is able to do all things according to his will, for the children of men, if it so be that they exercise faith in him? Wherefore, let us be faithful to him." It does seem really easy to forget all of our little blessings!! I always forget to just be grateful for the small stuff, especially when I am having a rough day. I forget a lot. I need to be better about remembering.

Keep clinging to the iron rod Ash! You are still an example to me in SO many ways, even tho you are so far away. And you can definitely count on me coming to visit sometime!! Wish I could come tomorrow :)

Sometimes, is it the best to be so forgiving Ash? I feel like because I am so forgiving and I try to not let things bug me, I get taken advantage of.. Not really now, but you know, like with Laura for example. How many times have I forgiven her and the same thing happens? I didn't even go to her wedding... because she stopped talking to me! I could have shown up, but I was the one who decided not to.. Is that little of me? Should I have been the bigger person? I don't know.. I think there is just so much I can take you know? I know that Christ and Heavenly Father forgive a repeated sin over and over again... It's hard to though. It's hard to forgive and forget over and over again. I do hold grudges, but I just don't let them show. You are always more open about how you are feeling and THAT is something I admire about you!!

Also, I think triplets would be awesome and I know you could handle it.